From my Window…. Desde mi Ventana. A Merry Christmas to All

Positano, Italia
From my window I saw summer go by…  from my window, I saw my thoughts go wild… I still wonder why I didn’t get to say goodbye
POSITANO, ITALIA
Oh Summer beautiful … liquid dreams and all…
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Can’t take away the beauty of Autumn or Fall, Winter and cold,  having their own memories their own soul.
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Fire cracking, book diving, dreaming begins again…
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Contemplating that all is possible… didn’t I feel before the same? .
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I find over and over that life repeats itself, I’m always starting over or at least it feels this way…
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…Despite all the beginnings … the decades we left back, some things  will never change, the language of silence, the feeling of touch, those arms and  legs intertwined like an abstract piece of art…
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..A tiny home is enough when your heart is in the right place…
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…waiting is a joy when you know who you are waiting for… When you have somebody else…
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Family oh family … we all have different walks but isn’t it just perfect, isn’t it the best when we can come together putting things to rest, when we can get together and stop?
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…and there they go again, leaving my soul all warm, but I love the sound of silence and I love my time alone…
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Warm wine, cossy feet, a good book …and somebody to share them with…
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I wish you all  tomorrow, along with a cup of JOY, to have someone to share, the birth of our LORD…

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Merry Christmas, Happy Holidays!

Fall Memories…

When my kids were little I use to drive my bicycle everywhere and sometimes I took them with me sitting behind directly on the grill… Oh, my … only the thought of it sends chills down my spine and through my whole body!… It was a time of no helmets and no bicycle paths… we didn’t overthink things as much back then, but some, we definitely should have!

The one who shared those rides with me the most was my little piggy, the youngest of them all, who at the time was going to a Preschool called  “Louis Pasteur”.

One day I arrived to pick him up and found him standing at the door with his little lunchbox waiting for me, very entertained in conversation with the watchman, the school’s security guard who stood there every day and at all times.

Riding with boys...
Riding with boys…

As I approached them he started telling me everything about their conversation and introduced me to his friend – Mommy, this is my friend Louis Pasteur! – he said very proudly and excitedly, I smiled and said hi, but tried to correct him about the confusion. He wouldn’t have it. The watchman WAS Louis Pasteur to him. He had seen him every single day, at all hours standing there, guarding the School,  so he “knew” that was “his” school, Louis Pasteur’s School!   I had to live it alone. Not worth destroying such cuteness!

The best moments for me turned out to be not so good for him...
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Many years later, he told me that he was actually terrified with traffic and the way I rode, sitting there on my bike, in the middle of that traffic and noise, completely exposed… while I thought he was enjoying it …. suddenly one of my sweetest memories was now a horrible one of child endangerment and child abuse!  … I wish I could go back in time, hold him so tight against my heart and change many, oh, so many things, so he would never have to be scared again… at least not because of me…

and now she's coming to pick me up!
…and on top of everything, now she’s coming to pick me up again in that bloody bicycle!
If I could go back in time...
If I could turn back time…

Memories that fall out of nowhere, like leaves in Autumn, surprising and delighting us, just not in this case anymore… and I thought, that maybe if I wrote about it, I could possibly…. I don’t know what I thought…  but we don’t get do-overs in life, do we?…

He grew up to be a US Marine ...
… but he grew up to be an awesomely brave, smart and strong US Marine, in spite of me… or MAYBE, just maybe, even a little bit, because of me! I wish I could know…
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It should be mandatory to go to school to be a parent, it amazes me there aren’t any laws about that yet…
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Moms and boys…
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The Ghost of Christmas Past

Christmas is the most beautiful holiday of the year and even though we have managed to commercialize it to a point of no return it stills holds a profound meaning to me and to millions of people around the world … I believe all Christmases are happening at the same time, just like in Dickens’ “A Christmas Carol”  We are all connected, we are all the same….  I wanted to share with you the Christmas images I’ve been having lately in my mind and heart. I hope that you enjoy them and that they touch your heart as much as they did mine!

ITALIAN CHRISTMAS...
CHRISTMAS IN ITALY
YEP! WHAT HE SAID!
YEP! WHAT HE SAID!
My husband at Piazza San Marco in Venice, a long, long time ago... As I like to say: He was born the first half of last century! Sounds impressive, doesn't it?! (at the very end, 1949)
My husband at Piazza San Marco in Venice, a long, long time ago… As I like to say: He was born the first half of last century! Sounds impressive, doesn’t it?! (at the very end, 1949)
MORGAN WEISTLING
MORGAN WEISTLING IN A PERFECT INSPIRATION OF A PORTRAIT OF LOVE

“FOR IT IS GOOD TO BE CHILDREN SOMETIMES, AND NEVER BETTER THAN AT CHRISTMAS, WHEN ITS MIGHTY FOUNDER WAS A CHILD HIMSELF.” 
Charles Dickens, A Christmas Carol

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PURE LOVE
PURE LOVE

WHAT KIND OF LOVE?! PURE AND UNCONDITIONAL!

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HOLLYWOOD WHAT?

PONT ALEXANDRE - LES PONTS DE PARIS...
PONT ALEXANDRE – LES PONTS DE PARIS…

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INNOCENT PERFECTION

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ALL I WANT FOR CHRISTMAS… IS YOU!

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STILL REMEMBER….NOT ONLY FOR DECORATION…

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I LOVE YOU… I REALLY DO…

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EVERYTHING WENT QUIET …TIME STOOD STILL… I’LL ALWAYS HAVE, MY FATHER AND MY LITTLE BROTHER IN MY DREAMS…

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IS THAT YOU MY GUARDIAN ANGEL?! YOU LOOK EXACTLY LIKE HIM!

THE 'PEPINIERE' PARK IN VILLERS-LES-NANCY, FRANCE
THE ‘PEPINIERE’ PARK IN VILLERS-LES-NANCY, FRANCE

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FAMILY WILL HOLD YOU FOREVER, EVEN WHEN THEY ARE NOT HERE ANYMORE..

IT'S STILL CHRISTMAS, EVEN IN THE STREETS... STILL CHRISTMAS…EVEN IN THE STREETS…

VENICE STREETS ...
VENICE STREETS …
MAGIC
YOU CAN’T APPRECIATE SUMMERS WITHOUT WINTERS… YOU CAN’T APPRECIATE WINTERS WITHOUT SUMMERS!
I REMEMBER
MEMORIES OF MY FATHER
SIMPLY CHRISTMAS..
SIMPLY… IT’S CHRISTMAS!
CHRISTMAS JOY...
AMAZING GRACE!
COLMAR, FRANCE...
COLMAR, FRANCE…
OH MY, HE IS REAL!
OH MY, IT’S REALLY YOU SANTA!
REALLY?
I KNOW, I KNOW… I’M MISSING MY RED NOSE! I WAS IN A HURRY…
DADDY IS HOME
DADDY IS HOME! PLEASE HOLD ME!
WHAT MATTERS IS TO BE TOGETHER
THERE IS NOBODY ELSE IN THE WORLD I’D RATHER BE WITH…
OH BOY!
OH BOY! I’M BEAUTIFUL…
DO YOU WANT A LITTLE GIRL FOR CHRISTMAS?… I COME WITH A TEDDY BEAR…
WE HAVE TOO MUCH... YES, WE DO.
WE HAVE TOO MUCH… YES, WE DO.
THE CHRISTMAS SOCK... I RATHER BE COLD THAN WITHOUT DREAMS
THE CHRISTMAS SOCK… SHE’D RATHER BE COLD THAN WITHOUT DREAMS
MILK AND COOKIES
MILK AND COOKIES, FOR SANTA AND ME!
HOME IS WHERE THE HEART IS, YES INDEED!
HOME IS WHERE THE HEART IS, YES INDEED!
NORMAN ROCKWELL
NORMAN ROCKWELL … AMERICAN GENIUS !
THE PRETTIEST TREE IN THE WORLD
THE PRETTIEST TREE IN THE WORLD

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WHEN MOTHERS RULED THE WORLD!

WHEN ANYTHING WAS ENOUGH!
REMEMBER WHEN?
1936 A CHRISTMAS DINNER
1936 A CHRISTMAS DINNER
THE HEART OF A CHILD...
THE HEART OF A CHILD…
WINTER WONDERLAND
WINTER WONDERLAND
LOVE
EN UNAS MÍSERAS PAJAS… APOYADO SUAVEMENTE, DESCANSA SU PURA FRENTE… (MEMORIES OF MY MOTHER SINGING CHRISTMAS CAROLS WHEN I WAS A CHILD)

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I HOPE!
I HOPE! I BELIEVE!
RED MIRACLE
DUTCH MIRACLE
THE RABBITS CHRISTMAS
THE RABBITS’ CHRISTMAS
YES, WE HAVE ENOUGH TOYS...
LET’S TELL EVERYBODY THAT YES, WE HAVE ENOUGH TOYS…
NEW SHOES!  JOY!
NEW SHOES!! AUSTRIAN BOY DURING WWII
AND ENOUGH DECORATIONS...
THE SKINNY BOY WITH THE SKINNY TREE, NO, IT’S NOT ABOUT A SIZE “0”
THE BEAUTY AND THE BEAST
THE BEAUTY AND THE BEAST
Harry
Harry, are you still there waiting dear?  No child should have to wait in christmas!  It still hurts when I see you there like that, after so many years…
PICASSO
PICASSO
CONTEMPLATION
CONTEMPLATION
WHEN ALL WAS WELL IN THE WORLD
WHEN ALL WAS WELL IN THE WORLD
WONDER!
WONDER

“I will honour Christmas in my heart, and try to keep it all the year. I will live in the Past, the Present, and the Future. The Spirits of all Three shall strive within me. I will not shut out the lessons that they teach!”
Charles Dickens, A Christmas Carol

CHRISTMAS IN COLMAR, ALSACE...
CHRISTMAS IN COLMAR, ALSACE… FRANCE